Dear God

Dear God…Friday Part I

Hold me close.

As I sat to begin my time with God today, I felt He wanted me to share with you. It has been my constant prayer that the pain I endure in this life be used by Him.

So, I pray this prayer touches your heart today and brings you closer to our loving God. May His peace rest on you as you continue to heal. I know the world it telling you to be afraid right now, but remember that “The Lord is my light and salvation, whom shall I fear?” (Psalm 27:1) If you know God, you have nothing to fear.

Pour out your heart to God today. He is listening.

Blessings,

Susan

 

Father God,

My heart hurts more than I can bear sometimes. I want the hurt to go away, yet I know You are with me in it. I claim what David did in that “though my father and mother forsake me, You will receive me.” Sometimes loneliness is overwhelming.

Some days I just want to be healed and to no longer have to process all I’ve been through. To try to forget and just move on – as many tell me to do. I want to be working, raising a family, and living a life so different than what I have been given. Please help me not wish for what will not come to be. Help me be content in my circumstances and provide me the strength to continue to process all the trauma I have endured.

I want to be whole in You and I know that only in facing what I’ve been through and healing will that come to be. I know you can use each step of the healing process to bring me closer to You. Thank you for showing me light in the darkness. On days like today, when the pain seems to crush me, carry me through it.

Hold me close and never let me go. Thank you for loving me like a Father and showing me compassion. For bringing people into my life to show me Your compassion so I can further understand Your amazing love.

I trust You to continue to provide for me financially as well as strength to face each day. Stop me from looking ahead and borrowing trouble. Help me rest in You each minute of each day. May I be a blessing to those I encounter and may they see You.

In Jesus’ Name

Amen

 

© 2020 Susan M. Clabaugh

I am a former elementary school teacher and I am currently in the process of recovering from a childhood of sexual abuse and rape. I am pursuing God's will for my life right now which involves following various writing endeavors and working on some publishing. I feel God has led me to write this for my own healing, and to share with others who have been through the trauma of sexual assault.

1 comment on “Dear God…Friday Part I

  1. Linda M Ellis

    SOOOO needed today! Thx ever so much for walking through this process and lighting the path.

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