God and Sexual Assault

Celebrating the Father

Happy Father's Day, God.

I’ll admit sometimes I feel at a loss as to what to write. I send up prayers for God to lead me, and to speak despite my brokenness. Lately, I feel dry spiritually. You know, sometimes you just “feel” closer to God than other times. Realizing feelings aren’t reality has helped me understand these dry places. So on that note, here’s where I landed today.

I would like to broach the topic of the upcoming man-made holiday of Father’s Day, Sunday. I have a sadness when I think about it. I told my counselor I had already decided to not watch the church service because of it. He asked me to consider celebrating God, my Father.

I told him (sarcastically), “Thanks a lot for reminding me, but I wanted to dwell in my sadness.”

I don’t know where you are with your feelings on this day, but no matter where you are there is one Father that we all have and can celebrate.

It has taken me over a decade to come to the realization God is a loving, caring, Father. I had a hard time imagining any man being kind, compassionate, loving, and caring. In recent years I have begun watching Christian men and how they treat women and children. If earthly men are able to do this how much more can our Father in Heaven?

As we approach this Sunday, let’s consider not only celebrating men in your life who are fathers, but the One Father we all have in God.

fathers day

Father God,

I know you understand my sadness more than anyone here on earth can. As we come to the holiday celebrating fathers, I want to celebrate you and all you are. From the amazing sunrises and sunsets you create each day, to the flowers that bloom. You put so much thought into all of creation. Every little bug, animal, leaf, all bear your mark. How can I not know that you also uniquely created me and every other person? Thank you for reminding me I am yours and loving me beyond what I can comprehend. May you receive the glory from my healing as it continues in my life. Happy Father’s Day, God. I love you.

In Jesus Name,

Your Daughter, (or son)

Susan (your name)

© 2020 Susan M. Clabaugh. All Rights Reserved.

 

 

I am a former elementary school teacher and I am currently in the process of recovering from a childhood of sexual abuse and rape. I am pursuing God's will for my life right now which involves following various writing endeavors and working on some publishing. I feel God has led me to write this for my own healing, and to share with others who have been through the trauma of sexual assault.

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